Well, I have been working on my new years resolutions.
One of them that sticks out in my mind, at least right now, is that I want to live more in the moment but be wiser about my decisions though.
I worry too much about things. I really would like to just be able to enjoy the moment and relax and not be a worrier.
Everything in moderation!!!
I can still be healthy and still go out. I have given up the night life this past year 2007 a lot. But I think I needed to though. For one, it helped me quit smoking! (yuk) I was never a big smoker, really, but I smoked, nonetheless. And it also helped me focus in on some goals I wanted and some things I wanted to do for myself. However, lately, in the last month, I have been feeling a little up-tight about things. As I don't want to go out and get drunk, I still want to go out though. I miss going to see live shows. I miss dancing on Friday nights at iPop! at Art Bar. I miss going to see live jazz. Even if I don't drink, I can still go out and have fun! That's how I am and always have been. Why stop now? I don't like sitting on a couch on Friday nights, etc. Occasionally, I may have a drink (like at Halloween or this past weekend because it was New Years weekend), but if I don't, I don't care anymore what people think. I like to feel good the next day when I wake up. I don't like sleeping all day b/c of a hangover! Granted, I had a great time this past weekend, but I was tired, I got sick, and it took a lot of energy out of me. I'm tired of people asking me, "why aren't you drinking?" or "You need a drink." Honestly, that's why I stay home. I just don't want to have to deal with it. But I shouldn't have to worry about it. I'm 32, and the peer pressure days are over for me. I shouldn't have to feel as if I'm boring, old or lame if I'm not drunk or drinking. And I'm still living in the moment and having fun, even though I'm not. It's my choice. That's what life gives us is choices, and that is mine. If I accept you, why can't you accept me for who I am? I have made convictions this past year, and I'm standing true to them. I've been changing in different ways. I like it, and I don't want to get sidetracked again.
However, I never want to be a person who places double standards or who is judgmental either. I feel that maybe I have kinda been that way later on in 2007. It wasn't on purpose, but I kind of feel that maybe I was being too harsh or judgmental on some folks this year. I never want to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm sorry guys.
And I love my spontaneity! This past Saturday, I went out to my friend's store to look at some gear. I ended up hanging out with those guys in the store until they closed, and then we went over to Goatfeathers and had some wine and appetizers. I met some new people. I had no clue that I was even going to go out or anything, and it was great! I had so much fun with those guys. The most sarcastic group of people...it was a blast! I love how I meet random people. It's great! Here's to making new friends in 2008!!!
I want to do more of the things that are on my "to do" list. :)
I just want to make good decisions. I want to make decisions and know exactly how I feel before I act on them. I don't want to get hurt, and I don't want to hurt other people. I don't like feeling confused. I want to enjoy a moment and live in that moment without worrying about it, however, I just want to be sure about things before acting on them. I want to be wise with my words and my actions. Those are what people will remember. They always remember how you made them feel. Just like I will always remember how you made me feel.
Also, I'm getting back into climbing. I haven't climbed indoor or outdoors since 11/11 to be exact. (I kinda got down this holiday season. :(
Not sad, but a little down and confused about some stuff.) I'm a beginner at most things. All of the things I want to do, I am a beginner at. I meet a lot of people that are not beginners. Luckily, they take me under their wing and show me the way, but it is frustrating to always be the beginner!
I just want to be great in 2008! :)
One of them that sticks out in my mind, at least right now, is that I want to live more in the moment but be wiser about my decisions though.
I worry too much about things. I really would like to just be able to enjoy the moment and relax and not be a worrier.
Everything in moderation!!!
I can still be healthy and still go out. I have given up the night life this past year 2007 a lot. But I think I needed to though. For one, it helped me quit smoking! (yuk) I was never a big smoker, really, but I smoked, nonetheless. And it also helped me focus in on some goals I wanted and some things I wanted to do for myself. However, lately, in the last month, I have been feeling a little up-tight about things. As I don't want to go out and get drunk, I still want to go out though. I miss going to see live shows. I miss dancing on Friday nights at iPop! at Art Bar. I miss going to see live jazz. Even if I don't drink, I can still go out and have fun! That's how I am and always have been. Why stop now? I don't like sitting on a couch on Friday nights, etc. Occasionally, I may have a drink (like at Halloween or this past weekend because it was New Years weekend), but if I don't, I don't care anymore what people think. I like to feel good the next day when I wake up. I don't like sleeping all day b/c of a hangover! Granted, I had a great time this past weekend, but I was tired, I got sick, and it took a lot of energy out of me. I'm tired of people asking me, "why aren't you drinking?" or "You need a drink." Honestly, that's why I stay home. I just don't want to have to deal with it. But I shouldn't have to worry about it. I'm 32, and the peer pressure days are over for me. I shouldn't have to feel as if I'm boring, old or lame if I'm not drunk or drinking. And I'm still living in the moment and having fun, even though I'm not. It's my choice. That's what life gives us is choices, and that is mine. If I accept you, why can't you accept me for who I am? I have made convictions this past year, and I'm standing true to them. I've been changing in different ways. I like it, and I don't want to get sidetracked again.
However, I never want to be a person who places double standards or who is judgmental either. I feel that maybe I have kinda been that way later on in 2007. It wasn't on purpose, but I kind of feel that maybe I was being too harsh or judgmental on some folks this year. I never want to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm sorry guys.
And I love my spontaneity! This past Saturday, I went out to my friend's store to look at some gear. I ended up hanging out with those guys in the store until they closed, and then we went over to Goatfeathers and had some wine and appetizers. I met some new people. I had no clue that I was even going to go out or anything, and it was great! I had so much fun with those guys. The most sarcastic group of people...it was a blast! I love how I meet random people. It's great! Here's to making new friends in 2008!!!
I want to do more of the things that are on my "to do" list. :)
I just want to make good decisions. I want to make decisions and know exactly how I feel before I act on them. I don't want to get hurt, and I don't want to hurt other people. I don't like feeling confused. I want to enjoy a moment and live in that moment without worrying about it, however, I just want to be sure about things before acting on them. I want to be wise with my words and my actions. Those are what people will remember. They always remember how you made them feel. Just like I will always remember how you made me feel.
Also, I'm getting back into climbing. I haven't climbed indoor or outdoors since 11/11 to be exact. (I kinda got down this holiday season. :(
Not sad, but a little down and confused about some stuff.) I'm a beginner at most things. All of the things I want to do, I am a beginner at. I meet a lot of people that are not beginners. Luckily, they take me under their wing and show me the way, but it is frustrating to always be the beginner!
I just want to be great in 2008! :)
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