I have recently met someone who truly inspires me.
I am nervous and giddy around him, yet at the same time totally comfortable.
He treats me with respect, and he has manners.
He is weird, like me. And he gets me. It seems anyways.
I can joke around and tell him anything. It seems nothing shocks him.
I'm attracted to him but totally afraid of him. He is an owner and totally lives outside of the box. It totally scares me but at the same time, it makes me want to be around him all the time. I want to be more like him. He inspires me.
Being around him makes me like myself more...because he is accepting of me. He doesn't judge me.
However, he is unattainable. Not that I am not a good person or good enough, but I am totally afraid of him. Why?
At the same time he is unattainable, I believe he is absolutely perfect for me. He is everything I want.
I'm just not sure that I am everything he would want. It's so hard to be rejected by someone so great and inspiring and so unattainable. I'm not trying to put him on a pedestal either.
I'll just have to wait.
My gut usually lets me know when something isn't right. A lot of the times I may not truly know what my gut is telling me, but for the most part, the only thing that matters is that it tells me something just isn't quite right. That's all one really needs to know. So far, my gut hasn't said a damn thing!!!
Ugh!
About Me
- SueBear
- “The moment inbetween what you once were, and who you are now becoming, is where the dance of life really takes place.” ~ Barbara De Angelis "Nothing happens without personal transformation." I decided one day I wanted to change. I wanted more from life. I realized that if you want more, YOU have to make it happen. You have to go to it and create it. The most powerful weapon against a mediocre life is practice. And just like a fire, the human spirit needs to be lit again each day.
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