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Thought Of You

Quote for the Week

"Nothing happens without personal transformation."

So I hired a personal trainer.  First one ever.  Feels weird.  I pay someone $30 for 30 minutes to work out with me and show me what to do.

The early mornings are not something I am used to doing for a hard workout though!

I had my first session at 6:30 AM Monday morning and today at 7:00 AM.  I'm doing it again next week.  I just want to get stronger, and lately I felt like I needed some extra motivation.

I'm actually super uncoordinated on some of things she has me do.  LOL

Monday:

• pullups on the rings with feet on ground
• plank variation
• squats with free weights
• lunges with free weights
• running
• 2 different sets of abs on a balance ball
• squats with the kettle bell (where you swing with your hips to lift the kettle bell up with straight arms)
• used kettle bell for triceps

Wednesday:

• squats with no weights as a warm up
• pullups on the rings with feet on the ground
• pushups with one hand on a ball (as you lift up you have to roll the ball to the other hand and do another pushup)
• triceps on the rings with feet on the ground
• kettle bell squats mentioned above
• lunges with kettle bell
• situps with a weight ball (on the way up i had to toss the ball and catch it on the way down)
• abs lifting heavy ball from side to side
• the ropes

These are hard workouts for me.  They only last 30 minutes, so we push it hard or 30 minutes.  I'm also doing my Daily Dozen, and now that school is out for the semester, I can finish reading Fit by Nature by John Colver.

2011 Charleston Bridge Run

This was my 3rd year running the bridge in Charleston!  As usual, it was a blast of a weekend.

I only had to power walk a little of it this year.  (the uphill section of the bridge)  I ran the rest.  I just ran a slow, steady pace.  12+ minute mile pace...minus out the walking part. 

This year, I did the 10K in 1:17.

In 2009, I did in 1:20+, and I power walked and ran it.  I did intervals of power walking and running that year. 

Each year, I improve...and each year it is more fun than the last! 

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a new goal

I've set up a new personal challenge for myself for September this year.

The Art Loeb Trail

It is 30.1 miles long.  Read the above link.

I want to hike it in a day!

My training has already begun.

Back in 2008, I power walked a full marathon in one day and a half marathon the very next day to raise funds for a charity to help in the fight against breast cancer and raise breast cancer awareness among minorities.  I raised $1900!  This was done on paved roads.

Anyway, wish me luck!!!

When someone asks you, "What is your goal?" I hope you have a good answer!

Why Don't You Look Like A Fitness Model?

This is an awesome article.  I LOVE it!

I really wanted to share it.

Although, I have been blessed with somewhat good genes, I am not perfect.  Although, I was blessed with a somewhat nice figure, it hasn't always been in the best shape. 

For years, I have just been 'lucky'! 

It wasn't until I started climbing...until I started wanting to do races and strength train and really condition my body and get strong that I realized I wasn't so lucky afterall.  I was clearly not in shape. Most of my life, I just got away with my looks as a skinny person with a flattering figure.  That doesn't mean shit when you are climbing up a mountain side!

First, you have to hike an approach to get the rock face.  Then you climb the rock face all day.  Then you must hike out.  That doesn't even begin to describe other activities such as bouldering, backpacking, mountaineering, ice climbing, obstacle course races, 10Ks, half-marathons or marathons and kayaking...among other things!

Had I not found climbing, I'd probably be a lazy bum right now.  Climbing got me in shape for climbing.  But then I started to get in shape to be a better climber.  Now, I want to be in shape for LIFE!  Now that I have been climbing for a couple of years, I have now been introduced to the outdoors.  There are so many types of outdoor activities that require you to be in shape.  AND you can simply get in shape by just being active in the outdoors period!!!

I want to be a personal trainer in my future, and I also want to work in the physical therapy field now.  I have been conditioning and working harder to get stronger myself.  I want to be in great physical shape so I can participate in fun, adventurous activities in life and remain healthier for along time...not to look like a damn fitness model.  I also want to help others like me who want to get in great physical shape for life. 

I want to climb mountains.  I want to run a marathon one day.  I want to be a personal trainer.  I want to help others succeed at things, the same things I never thought I could do.  I want to be healthier.  I want to take care of my body, you only get one!

You don't have to look like a damn fitness model to be considered in great physical shape.  And just because you look like a fitness model, does not mean you are in great physical shape. You also don't have to be able to do 25 straight pull-ups, 250 dead lifts and run a marathon in 3:30 all in one day to say that you are in great physical shape either!

36...the age of new skin...

So...yeah, I'm 36 now.  Nothing feels like I am, except for my skin!

Today, I spent a lot of money on new facial creams and cleansers.  Depressing!

My skin is so dry these last few winters, and I feel young....but my skin is in the late 30s now.  I actually had to buy lotions for mature skin.  WTF?  Me???

I see little changes now in my skin when I look in the mirror.  I know it is something we are going to go through, but I'm not taking it very well.

Satchidananda Murtaye

So, remember a few blogs back, I told you about how we are tearing apart the Anusara Invocation line by line each week in hot yoga class?


This is the second line: Satchidananda Murtaye 

There are a total of 4 lines in the Invocation.
The 3 remaining lines of the Invocation describe the inner teacher.
The first line asked "Who are you?"  Answer: You are your highest teacher.

Satchidananda Murtaye: "Who assumes the forms of Reality, Consciousness and Bliss"

The word 'murtaye' is often shortened to murti. A murti is a form or figure.

A murti gives a form to that which is formless so that we can better understand it.

Artists explain things through sculpture, music and paintings.  Poets explain things through metaphors, etc...to help us understand.  'Every color, placement and paint stroke, musical note and word has a purpose. These give form and explanation so that the stories and teachings can be shared over and over.'

Therefore, the formless inner teacher now takes a form.

Sat = Truth
Chit = Ultimate Knowledge/Consciousness
Ananda = Bliss

 It takes the form of Truth, Ultimate Knowledge/Consciousness, and Bliss.

What do these things look like?  Good question.

We are the outer form of our inner teacher.  The form is You!  Every bone, hair, and blemish.

You can actively choose to do as you wish with your form.

In Anusara Yoga, this form we choose to take could be a certain pose.  Or the form could be an offering to The Devine.  For me personally, I want my outer form to show my inner teacher.  I want to learn from that mirror of me and put the best me forward.  I want to shine my light and help others to shine theirs.  I want to be a nice person and be genuinely kind. I want to have an open heart and an open mind. I want to be loving.  I want to be stress free. I want to take care of my form...it is all I get...I am a temple.

What form will you decide to take?

This is one of my favorite songs by Switchfoot!  It is called the Economy of Mercy. I really like it.  This line of the Invocation kind of made me think about these lyrics a bit for some reason:

"There's just two ways to lose yourself in this life
And neither way is safe
In my dreams I see visions of the future
But today we have today
And where will I find You?

In the economy of mercy
I am a poor and begging man
In the currency of Grace
Is where my song begins
In the colors of Your goodness
In the scars that mark your skin
In the currency of Grace
Is where my song begins

These carbon shells
These fragile dusty frames
House canvases of souls
We are bruised and broken masterpieces
But we did not paint ourselves
And where will I find You?

Where was I when the world was made?
Where was I?

I'm lost without You here
Yes, I'm lost without You near me
I'm lost without You here
You knew my name when the world was made"

To me, this song has several meanings.  I won't go into all of those here.  However, I'm lost without my inner teacher.  I am lost without spirit and without grace.  We did not paint ourselves, true, but we can still choose our form.

Thank you, Dara, once again!!!

Thought this was kinda of funny this morning...

After an awesome weekend of climbing for 3 days straight and passing a lead fall test and leading some, I go to work this morning, and I find this in my inbox:

"First, choose from the options that thrill you.
Then, choose the ones that also teach you.
And from these, Sue, choose the scariest.
Butterflies in your tummy are good,
The Universe"

2 miles!!!

I ran 2 miles this evening!

I've been doing squats lately, and they are helping. My legs feel like they can actually work and carry me. However, I am done at 2 miles though. Whew!

Squats and dips in the morning!

Man, it feels good to see results!

OM Namah Shivaya Gurave

Last Friday night's hot yoga class, we discussed this first line of the Anusara Invocation.

This month, my friend and instructor, Dara Brown, is breaking it down line by line. Thanks Dara!

This first line of the invocation means: I offer myself to the Light, the Auspicious One, who is the True Teacher within and without.

OM means God is within you. "Om is the one eternal syllable of which all that exists is but the development. The past, the present, and the future are all included in this one sound, and all that exists beyond the three forms of time is also implied in it"
Om is also a symbol of grace.

Namah Shivaya Gurave is actually a question. It asks, "who are you?", and it answers "You are the highest teacher."

This was important to me to learn this, not just b/c I have been singing the invocation now before classes for a couple of months, but b/c I want to be a teacher of sorts.

I want to help rehab persons in the near future, and I also want to be a personal coach or trainer soon.

The best quality of a teacher, is one who turns the mirror back on to you...to show you your best potential. To show you YOU! These are the ones who tear down your walls. They want to see you improve and do your best.

This is also the quality I am looking for in a soul mate. Someone who challenges me to be my highest self...never compromising my integrity.

Who are YOU i ask?

Do you line up with your highest teacher?

Stone Summit trip report

Well, I was wanting to get out to Whitesides in NC this weekend and follow Ben on the OR.
However, the forecast was crap.

It is my Spring Break after all, so I wanted to climb. So I went to the largest indoor crag called Stone Summit. It is located in Atlanta, GA.

I'm only a little under 3 hrs away from there. Most of the crags I go to outside are the same distance if not more. I figured, what the hell???

This place was awesome!

There was a little girl in there leading all of these super hard routes. She was only like 10 years old. She was awesome to watch.
I took a pic of her coach belaying her. It was really inspiring to see these little kids in there with their coaches. The coaches were big time too I suppose b/c they had jackets on that read, "USA Climbing" on them.

This guy was pretty awesome too:

My friend, Paul.

This place is freaking huge! It is the perfect, crappy weather place...literally, it is an indoor crag!!!

See why I want to lead? I really want to lead in this gym.
It has tons of moderate routes I can lead at my grade ability. I could really learn to lead here.

Bouldering area:

My friends are down there somewhere:

There they are!!! Yay!

Of course I had to take a panoramic pic!

Paul leading:

There is a wall that moves too. They move it to make it incline, and the routes are set for speed climbing. They didn't have it set up though. I remember asking Paul about that wall. I asked, "What is that lady doing there?" He says, "Oh yeah, that's the speed climbing wall." Then we both looked at the route and looked at each other and said at the same time, "Um, well, she's not speed climbing..." LOL!!! (sorry)

An adult's jungle gym:

Underneath that red carpet is the track for the lift that helps carry the buckets of holds up for the route setters. Really cool, heh?

They have gym equipment here as well and yoga classes.

The kids climbing areas are awesome too! There is a dinosaur they climb on, and it has a slide too!

I had a blast climbing here Sunday!

I failed my lead test though. I'll get it next time. I really would like to start leading. It is very frustrating that I'm not. I mean, I have already led some stuff, even outdoors. I want to lead at this gym though. I just think it is a great place to learn.

In order to lead here, you have to fall on a lead test. It was frustrating b/c I was very nervous. Then I didn't want to let go and, just as usual. I mean, who really wants to fall? You fall if you have to sometimes. But who really just wants to be that careless and be falling all the time on lead. I don't! Others learn by falling and I respect that. I however, don't want to be that kind of climber that pushes that hard to where I take falls like that. I personally will never lead anything out of my grade level range. That's just me.

I screamed on the way down. It wasn't pretty. They failed me on my test for multiple reasons.
Oh well, not the end of the world. However, it is a little frustrating and disappointing.

I get so scared on lead...now you want me to fall on purpose? Wow!


I ran 1.7 miles tonight without stopping to walk! Yay! I was hoping for 2 miles. I'll get it next time. All of these squats I am doing are really helping I can tell.
:-)

Low days exist to remind you that you still have choices.
High days, Sue, exist to remind you of how fast you rebound... among other things.
Boing,
The Universe

Another blog post on training...

john colver

I love this blog!!!

Train Harder - Gain More Results? Err… Maybe? by John Colver

Train Harder - Gain More Results? Err… Maybe?

As I am "training" for my life...just want to be fit for life's upcoming events so I can participate in them...I am reading this blog by John Colver.

This is a really good blog post!

Pain Makes Couch Potatoes

I have FMS and PFS, not major conditions...they are not degenerative nor will they cause death. However, it causes a lot of chronic pain.

Another reason I want to help others...I have chronic pain, so I know what it feels like.

Pain makes couch potatoes! I know, b/c I used to be one. I've had my days from laying around.
I mean, I walked and jogged a little back in the day and as I got into my mid 20s, I was able to afford to go to the gym, so I did. But I was always in pain.

Even in high school, I was in pain...all the time. My body was never the same after I had a terrible bout of MONO my junior year of high school.

Growing up, my sister and I were always so active...we even did basketball camps, etc. in middle school. I loved track and field when I was in the 6th grade. Our parents had us in tap dance and acrobats, etc. They took us camping and hiking all the time. We were always camping at the beach too. They even let us take swim lessons and join the pool membership every summer! We rode our bicycles around everywhere as a kid! I even remember one summer when Mom enrolled me and Gayle (my twin sister) into an aerobics class...it was a summer long class on the weekend.

In high school, it all stopped. I got lazy or got in the wrong crowd.

My freshman year of college, i lived on campus and had no car. I had to walk everywhere! I even worked out at the campus gym and even took body sculpting classes. I went camping and hiking that year some. After that, I turned 21 and could legally drink and party. So I did. My exercise turned into going to raves and dancing from 11pm to 11am the next day! I was really good at dancing. Glow sticks and all! Hahahaha Seriously, I was good at it. It was aerobic too. I always remember my knees hurting all the time from dancing. My favorite room was the break dancing...and drumb and bass. I always wanted to learn how to break dance but never did. I was also not taking care of my body though...eating terrible back then and not getting enough rest!

At age 25, I was settled down by now, out of college and working. I was sort of a couch potato, but i still liked to power walk and go out occasionally to club. I started meeting some people who were active, and I wanted to get out more. But I would hurt all the time. It would make me just want to lay in bed. I finally went to a rheumatologist who diagnosed me with FMS. He told me that most people with FMS are usually disabled by their 30s. He wrote me a prescription for some Flexeril and told me to take advil.

When he diagnosed me, I didn't even understand FMS. No one did. They still don't really. At least they know more about it now. I started my own research. That was when I joined a gym for the first time. I was 26.

I found that exercise really helped me feel better!

An old friend of mine and I used to work out together every day at the gym. We power walked together too. We were really motivated and exercising all the time too. I started feeling really good all the time. I even starting getting muscles. I remember she got a second job at night and worked out less and less and then we never worked anymore together.

I still went to the gym, but it wasn't the same w/o a partner. It was really hard to get motivated. Then my boyfriend (at the time) and I got a puppy. Needless to say, my working out came to a hault. I would come home from work to let the puppy out and feed him....and then never went back out. I was also in school at night as well at this point too. I sorta stopped working out. I was studying a lot.

When I hit 30, my aches and pains started coming back again. The boyfriend and I weren't together anymore after 5 years, and I started going out and staying up late...leading an unhealthy lifestyle. It felt similar to college, except not as crazy! I laid around a lot feeling sort of down and in pain a lot...probably depressed. I slept a ton too.

I was tired of hurting. I was tired of the way I was living and tired of my boring life! I was existing and that was it.

I started reading a lot of books. I wanted to be a different person and change my life. Life to me, had no meaning behind it.

I joined back up at the gym again in 2006. This is when I started doing yoga a lot. Trying to work out again. The same gym where I was doing yoga classes has a climbing wall. In 2007, that is when I tried climbing. I was scared of it at first and wasn't sure if I would ever go back. But I did. And I ended up loving it! Now I climb a lot, and it is something I could not imagine never doing anymore.

Unfortunately for me, climbing is really hard on your body. Having FMS and not being previously conditioned for a sport like this, later on, I started having issues with pain again. My knees mostly...and shoulders and neck. I figured out that you have to train your opposites with any sport...and that you have to condition your body as a whole. I've learned so much since I started climbing about my body! And I have also learned it from Anusara Yoga. Most folks would probably already know all of this, but not me. I had never been into sports. I wasn't aware of how bad I was treating my body.

I sought physical therapy in Spring 2010 for my knees. I learned so much. And I also found that what I was learning was so interesting. I wanted to know more. I also wanted to feel better and do more and push myself in ways that I've never done my whole life. Fear, anxiety and pain had constantly held me back for so long.

I have also in the course of several years sought some therapy. Getting to the root of emotional issues also helps. A lot of pain is brought on by emotional problems.

I used to just lay around all the time, because it hurt to move. Now it hurts when I lay around. I want to move constantly. Hell, if it is gonna hurt on a couch, why not just get up and move? Moving is better.

Regular exercise is key for physical and mental health. It also helps keep muscles strong, and your bones need strong muscles. They help support each other. I also don't want Osteoarthritis and other things as I get older. Strong muscles help make your bones stronger!

I have gone back through and read a lot of my old blog posts here. Wow! I sure have come a long way. I also found some old posts where I wrote about how I didn't know what my purpose was here in life and how I felt confused as to what my calling was.

I can look back at all the people I have met along this journey since I decided to change my course, and I have met some really inspiring people. People who inspired me to want and go get a better life!

Oddly enough, here I am going back to school now. Wow!!!

I doubt that pain really makes couch potatoes! I am quite sure it is the other way around now!