So, this weekend, I joined a caving grotto. Google it if you don't know what it is. Bascially, you have to join one to learn about caving and to get in on where all the caves are and to get the maps, etc. So, anyways, I joined up.
I'm really excited. After a five hour meeting and watching videos and filmstrip pics of this grotto's trips and such, I was really super excited about going on a caving trip soon. We went over the gear, etc. and clothing for a trip. It will most likely be a horizontal trip. However, my ultimate goal one day would be to go vertical. I need to build up a lot of endurance for a trip like that though. My endurance sux!
I lose a lot of weight when I do cardio. I have a very high metabolism. I am already skinny enough! (I lose a pound just from worry over bills, you know?) But a person's heart needs cardio. So, I will just have to eat way more calories, etc. Because I am starting a cardio routine now. It will start off slow and graduate to a harder work-out. I may look in shape, but I'm not when it comes to endurance, heart rate, etc. I have always hated cardio. But I have a new climbing partner that doesn't mind climbing with a beginner once and awhile, so I don't want to disappoint him. I want to be in shape and be able to get up these pitches and not have to rest on the approaches all the time, etc. I just want to give it my all. There is really no excuse for me not. And I also want to be able to do a vertical caving trip one day!!!
I just paid my deposit for the Rockclimbing 101 skills course coming up in March. I'm excited for that. I will learn more about knots, etc. and about anchoring a top rope. Even though I can't lead right now, I think it would be a good idea for me to learn everything I can. Not only so I know how to do it myself, but so that when I climb with others, I can know for sure we are all climbing safely. I don't want to climb with someone that doesn't climb safe. And if I don't know how to do these things, how will I know? Besides, there is a place called Crowder's Mtn. where you can hang top ropes w/o having to lead a climb.
Right now, I have put off the roller derby. It is way too expensive. There are leagues for so many things, and I have never heard of them being so expensive like this one. I just can't afford it...not when all the climbing stuff I want to do and buy is expensive! You know? I'm really digging the climbing so my money right now is going for that. Besides, we are going into a recession right now. I just want to focus on paying off some bills. I want to get 'em paid off and try to live a simpler life. That way, if one day, I decide hey...I'm moving to Cali...then i can w/o too many worries. ;-)
I think Cali (central coast area) is like my dream place to live. I don't want to live in one of the big cities either. I really liked central coast when I was there. Mountains and ocean! :)
That's all my news for now...
Peace,
Sue:)
About Me
- SueBear
- “The moment inbetween what you once were, and who you are now becoming, is where the dance of life really takes place.” ~ Barbara De Angelis "Nothing happens without personal transformation." I decided one day I wanted to change. I wanted more from life. I realized that if you want more, YOU have to make it happen. You have to go to it and create it. The most powerful weapon against a mediocre life is practice. And just like a fire, the human spirit needs to be lit again each day.
Monday, November 23, 2009
January 17, 2008
I am beyond stoking out of my gore right now dudes!
Seriously!
I heard back today from MED WAR. I have sent in an application form to be a volunteer at the Med War Challenge for the southeast race this year in March.
A friend of mine is actually racing in the race.
It's a Medical Wilderness Adventure Race! Exciting, huh?
I cannot wait. I have been wanting to volunteer lately, and I think I found my calling. I get to camp the whole weekend and meet lots of cool, interesting people, and help people. :)
Joy Joy Joy!
It's going to be great.
I have also recently changed my "Kids Status" on my profile. I'm undecided now instead of just totally not wanting to have any. I went to this really awesome Bodies Exhibit in Charlotte over December holidays. I saw something there that changed me kind of. It was the fetus room. Even at 3 weeks pregant, there is a life form growing. It's real. You can even see fingernails developing, the head just tiny little parts of a real human being. I am still pro choice and always will be, but I don't know...something in me kinda sparked that day seeing all that. And lately, I feel that kids are inspiring little beings. There is so much we can learn from them. They recreate and reinvent themselves every day. We as adults lose that as we get older. It's refreshing being around my nieces. Their imaginations just run wild. It totally amazes me. Even though I am 32, there are a lot of women who are waiting to have kids at later ages. Even if I never fall in love and meet Mr. Right, I can always adopt. There are plenty of orphans out there who need good and caring homes. I was worried this past weekend about something, and my 6 year old niece took my hand and said to me, "Don't worry Aunt Sue, everything will be alright. It's ok. I'll help you." (She was referring to helping me with the twins in the bathroom...sometimes I don't know what to do when it comes to kids! lol Do I have to wipe their butts? Do they already know how to do that? etc. It was just me and my bro that day) She is about to turn 7 and she already seems so grown up for her age. It's amazing. We can learn so much from kids!
I wish I could rewind time and go back and major in education or counseling and work with youth and help them out with just saying no to drugs or whatever. Mentor them and help them in times of need when they don't have parents to count on for stuff like that.
I honestly feel like that is where i'm going to find my "boy scout". It really turns me on when people help others. I think it's a very attractive trait. I'm passionate, and I want to get involved somehow...and maybe someday, I'll meet a nice guy who respects me and treats me like a lady who likes to do the same thing.
While at the same time I'm very liberated and independent woman, I like a guy who respects me and who has manners and treats me wonderfully. I like having doors opened for me or being offered to help carry a huge load. It doesn't mean that I wouldn't return the favor, and it doesn't mean he is belittling me either. Consideration is the key. A true gentleman!
Here is a cool quote I got in my inbox today at work:
"Life is a never ending journey that gets shorter in time, don't waste it on things that won't matter to anyone. Open up your mind to worlds of possibilities where differences and beliefs will be embraced and not thrown away."
Seriously!
I heard back today from MED WAR. I have sent in an application form to be a volunteer at the Med War Challenge for the southeast race this year in March.
A friend of mine is actually racing in the race.
It's a Medical Wilderness Adventure Race! Exciting, huh?
I cannot wait. I have been wanting to volunteer lately, and I think I found my calling. I get to camp the whole weekend and meet lots of cool, interesting people, and help people. :)
Joy Joy Joy!
It's going to be great.
I have also recently changed my "Kids Status" on my profile. I'm undecided now instead of just totally not wanting to have any. I went to this really awesome Bodies Exhibit in Charlotte over December holidays. I saw something there that changed me kind of. It was the fetus room. Even at 3 weeks pregant, there is a life form growing. It's real. You can even see fingernails developing, the head just tiny little parts of a real human being. I am still pro choice and always will be, but I don't know...something in me kinda sparked that day seeing all that. And lately, I feel that kids are inspiring little beings. There is so much we can learn from them. They recreate and reinvent themselves every day. We as adults lose that as we get older. It's refreshing being around my nieces. Their imaginations just run wild. It totally amazes me. Even though I am 32, there are a lot of women who are waiting to have kids at later ages. Even if I never fall in love and meet Mr. Right, I can always adopt. There are plenty of orphans out there who need good and caring homes. I was worried this past weekend about something, and my 6 year old niece took my hand and said to me, "Don't worry Aunt Sue, everything will be alright. It's ok. I'll help you." (She was referring to helping me with the twins in the bathroom...sometimes I don't know what to do when it comes to kids! lol Do I have to wipe their butts? Do they already know how to do that? etc. It was just me and my bro that day) She is about to turn 7 and she already seems so grown up for her age. It's amazing. We can learn so much from kids!
I wish I could rewind time and go back and major in education or counseling and work with youth and help them out with just saying no to drugs or whatever. Mentor them and help them in times of need when they don't have parents to count on for stuff like that.
I honestly feel like that is where i'm going to find my "boy scout". It really turns me on when people help others. I think it's a very attractive trait. I'm passionate, and I want to get involved somehow...and maybe someday, I'll meet a nice guy who respects me and treats me like a lady who likes to do the same thing.
While at the same time I'm very liberated and independent woman, I like a guy who respects me and who has manners and treats me wonderfully. I like having doors opened for me or being offered to help carry a huge load. It doesn't mean that I wouldn't return the favor, and it doesn't mean he is belittling me either. Consideration is the key. A true gentleman!
Here is a cool quote I got in my inbox today at work:
"Life is a never ending journey that gets shorter in time, don't waste it on things that won't matter to anyone. Open up your mind to worlds of possibilities where differences and beliefs will be embraced and not thrown away."
January 13,2008 - Another Journey
"Life is a journey, not a race."
Each time I go out climbing, I always bring back a new Sue. I guess that's why for me, I love it so much.
I learn so much about myself and others.
Like this past weekend, for example, I climbed with a new friend. :)
Each time I go out climbing, I always bring back a new Sue. I guess that's why for me, I love it so much.
I learn so much about myself and others.
Like this past weekend, for example, I climbed with a new friend. :)
It was hard. I am always concentrating on other stupid shit like, "I'm not fast enough...I'm too slow" or "I'm too weak" or "I suck at this". I need to go at my own pace and just stop comparing myself to others. I mean, why compare yourself to someone who isn't a beginner anyways? That is like pure torture! And who cares what others can do and what you can't? Focus on what you can do and use it to the fullest. Anyhoo, I need to focus on gaining confidence, right? How will I do that if I keep knocking myself. Sometimes, I am my own worst enemy.
Anyways, I am motivated by kindness and love (especially 110 feet up on a granite wall). You can be tough on me, but do it kindly and with lots of love, and I'll get better. :)
And that pretty much goes for anything with me I think. (except for roller derby...yes, I went and scoped it out tonight finally...and when Leia yelled out, "Good work ladies!" and then "Move ya bitches" as they were all just warming up on laps...I was instantly quite aroused. I guess I do like some aggression afterall. lol)
After talking about all kinds of stuff with my partner/friend, Billy, this weekend, I learned a lot about myself. I learned about some things that I like about me (weird to hear, huh? yeah, well, I've always kinda had this problem of not liking myself too much), and I also learned about some things I could change. That is always good.
I love talking about things and hashing out over stuff that bugs me with an open- minded person who is kind and loving and very humble and who genuinely likes to help others.
It was a refreshing weekend.
We climbed at Looking Glass on the Nose. This was my 2nd time climbing the Nose. It was freakin' cold though. Yes, I am a wimp when it comes to cold weather of any kind. I put my shoes inside my fleece under my arm-pits just like Mark told me awhile back. It really helped warm them up. I felt good starting out. Mid way, I was getting really cold. My fingers were actually burning and I couldn't feel my toes anymore. There was no sun on the Nose yet. As I reached the top of that first pitch, I wasn't even enjoying myself anymore. I was hurting. I didn't fall though. But I couldn't feel my toes and at the same time, they were throbbing. Not sure if that makes any sense. And it wasn't like it was super freezing or anything, but it could've been in the upper 30s or lower 40s in the shade up at 110 feet high with a chilly wind blowing. Regardless, I was cold! I just wanted to rap down. At that point, I just didn't care about climbing. All i could think about was how much I was hurting. Anyways, so we sat up on top of the 1st pitch just hanging out for a bit talking. I loosened up my shoes, and the blood started flowing again! Aah!
Billy taught me to tie a clove hitch knot this weekend, and I learned (again) how to tie the prusik and how to rap down. I haven't done that since back in October. I seconded him and cleaned his gear. I also have not done that since October. So, even though we came down from that particular climb on the first pitch, I learned a lot.
We moved over to the Sun Dial Crack. The sun was out and on that side really good. It was sweet! I felt so much better.
starting up:
I look like I am in pain here! LOL
It was freezing though!!!
View from the first pitch down:
The Sun Dial Crack is a 5.8. I only made it up to the 2nd pitch. The 2nd pitch was hard! I still didn't fall once but I did have to pull up on a sling though. I know...cheating! I couldn't find a hand hold and wasn't comfortable with my feet and was mentally breaking down so I grabbed the sling and pulled myself up to the cam. Anyways, as I was climbing the 2nd pitch, this chic, Mary, raps down from another climb. Anyways, she says, "You're doing great!" And I had Billy above me saying the same thing. :)
My ankles get so sore. I really need to start running or something. Not only would that help my ankles get stronger, but it would help my endurance and help me on the approaches. I need to work on my breathing as well.
Besides just working out at the gym over the last few years, I've never been involved in playing sports. Climbing is probably one of the hardest things I've ever done...hiking the approach, carrying a heavy pak, carrying heavy rope or gear, learning about gear and knots and physics, etc., learning footwork and balancing, working those legs and working my mind, pushing myself mentally, belaying uses your upper body, learning how to trust, endurance, focusing and cognitive thought prcessing, etc.!!! Anyways, it definitely helps with my anxiety issues that I have. I feel stronger in many different ways each time I climb. I actually feel high or buzzed. I actually get sad when we drive out of the forest. :(
The climbers I have met so far have all been really great people. I hope I continue to meet such kind folks! There was a man there climbing solo on Saturday. Anyways, a girl from Charlotte was leading and she took a fall. She broke her ankle. The man helped her, and Billy and i also heard her when she fell. It didn't sound good at all. Billy yelled out over to the Nose area to make sure everyone over there was ok. He would've come down. Then another man who was just out hiking also pitched in and helped. It kind of makes me wonder sometimes why people just aren't always this kind and loving towards each other?
Why does life seem to be a rat race?
And then it makes me wonder, or rather, realize, that people are in and out of your life for a reason. Whether it is to teach you something new or to help you out in a time of need. Whether it is so that you learn something about yourself...something you can change to become a better person or something so that you can stand up and fight for what you truly believe in. Or to hurt you so you can know what it's like to have a broken heart and how to heal it on your own. Or for you to do something wrong unto someone else and have to learn what it is like to gain a person's trust back and learn what it is like to forgive and to be forgiven. We are all connected somehow in this universe of sorts.
I also truly believe that what comes around, goes around. People should always be willing to lend a hand. You never know when you might need it one day.
Anyways, I loved climbing with Billy. He is a great teacher, a natural born leader. He is humble and kind. He has a great heart. He genuinely cares about others. He is a great person, and now he is a friend of mine. I accidentally left my favorite jacket up there...:(
So now, that just means I will get to climb with him again. :)
On the way up the 1st pitch at a nice resting place:
My ankles get so sore. I really need to start running or something. Not only would that help my ankles get stronger, but it would help my endurance and help me on the approaches. I need to work on my breathing as well.
Besides just working out at the gym over the last few years, I've never been involved in playing sports. Climbing is probably one of the hardest things I've ever done...hiking the approach, carrying a heavy pak, carrying heavy rope or gear, learning about gear and knots and physics, etc., learning footwork and balancing, working those legs and working my mind, pushing myself mentally, belaying uses your upper body, learning how to trust, endurance, focusing and cognitive thought prcessing, etc.!!! Anyways, it definitely helps with my anxiety issues that I have. I feel stronger in many different ways each time I climb. I actually feel high or buzzed. I actually get sad when we drive out of the forest. :(
The climbers I have met so far have all been really great people. I hope I continue to meet such kind folks! There was a man there climbing solo on Saturday. Anyways, a girl from Charlotte was leading and she took a fall. She broke her ankle. The man helped her, and Billy and i also heard her when she fell. It didn't sound good at all. Billy yelled out over to the Nose area to make sure everyone over there was ok. He would've come down. Then another man who was just out hiking also pitched in and helped. It kind of makes me wonder sometimes why people just aren't always this kind and loving towards each other?
Why does life seem to be a rat race?
And then it makes me wonder, or rather, realize, that people are in and out of your life for a reason. Whether it is to teach you something new or to help you out in a time of need. Whether it is so that you learn something about yourself...something you can change to become a better person or something so that you can stand up and fight for what you truly believe in. Or to hurt you so you can know what it's like to have a broken heart and how to heal it on your own. Or for you to do something wrong unto someone else and have to learn what it is like to gain a person's trust back and learn what it is like to forgive and to be forgiven. We are all connected somehow in this universe of sorts.
I also truly believe that what comes around, goes around. People should always be willing to lend a hand. You never know when you might need it one day.
Anyways, I loved climbing with Billy. He is a great teacher, a natural born leader. He is humble and kind. He has a great heart. He genuinely cares about others. He is a great person, and now he is a friend of mine. I accidentally left my favorite jacket up there...:(
So now, that just means I will get to climb with him again. :)
On the way up the 1st pitch at a nice resting place:
January 8, 2007
So, I'm seconding this weekend up at Looking Glass! :)
In February, a group from Charleston is going to Crowder's. I'm planning on going. :) I want to get back up on Opinionated!
And, I have been invited on a trip to Red River Gorge for climbing in March. Hell yes! I am so stoked right now! Red River Gorge is in Kentucky. Somewhere new! Yay!!! I was invited to go with a group of experienced climbers off of the rock climbing website. They said they would be doing some moderate climbs that I could second. :)
I am getting my ass back in the gym. I need to really get back in shape. I'll be climbing again there for more practice. I want to get stronger mentally this year with my climbing. Good news though, when I went to the doc about my kidney stone, I found out that I had gained a pound! Yahoo! (I had lost some weight after August.)
January 7, 2008
My new year is off with a bang!
Last night, I had an epiphany or something.
One other new years goal is also to listen to my gut more. I think it's pretty much on target about most things. I just need to listen to it.
Anyways, with that being said, I've already put in an inquiry to Fox Mountain Guides for a two day Rockclimbing 101 Course they offer. It takes place in early March. Tons of climbing and tons of learning about the gear and knots, etc.
After that course, I'm going to do the Rockclimbing 201 course. They teach you how to place gear, etc. And maybe I'll learn more about how to lead, etc. This one is also a two day course. It's kind of expensive, but worth it though. Hell, I want to learn, and I'm tired of being the "cute girl that wants to climb". And I don't like being stuck in a gym hoping I get invited out on a trip.
I also put out another bulletin on the message board on www.rockclimbing.com to climb with experienced people. To be safe, I deleted my MySpace link though and made my page private.
I was also informed about a site for chics from a fellow female on the rock climbing website. It's called She Climbs Carolina.
Last night, I had an epiphany or something.
One other new years goal is also to listen to my gut more. I think it's pretty much on target about most things. I just need to listen to it.
Anyways, with that being said, I've already put in an inquiry to Fox Mountain Guides for a two day Rockclimbing 101 Course they offer. It takes place in early March. Tons of climbing and tons of learning about the gear and knots, etc.
After that course, I'm going to do the Rockclimbing 201 course. They teach you how to place gear, etc. And maybe I'll learn more about how to lead, etc. This one is also a two day course. It's kind of expensive, but worth it though. Hell, I want to learn, and I'm tired of being the "cute girl that wants to climb". And I don't like being stuck in a gym hoping I get invited out on a trip.
I also put out another bulletin on the message board on www.rockclimbing.com to climb with experienced people. To be safe, I deleted my MySpace link though and made my page private.
I was also informed about a site for chics from a fellow female on the rock climbing website. It's called She Climbs Carolina.
I want to climb more in 2008! :)
I would like to go to Joshua Tree or to The Red Rocks at some point this year. They have beginner and intermediate climbing there too.
I remember last spring, all I wanted was to at least try the climbing wall at the gym. Who knew that I would end up liking it that much? Sometimes you just never know, until you try.
My friend, Paul, and my new friends I met are planning on skydiving soon too. Yeah!!! When it gets a little warmer...
And I definitley want to go snowboarding this year. This summer, I want to cool things off by trying out wakeboarding. I wanted to last year, but it didn't happen.
I'm so excited for the new year! It's already feeling strong.
I'm so excited for the new year! It's already feeling strong.
January 2, 2008
Well, I have been working on my new years resolutions.
One of them that sticks out in my mind, at least right now, is that I want to live more in the moment but be wiser about my decisions though.
I worry too much about things. I really would like to just be able to enjoy the moment and relax and not be a worrier.
Everything in moderation!!!
I can still be healthy and still go out. I have given up the night life this past year 2007 a lot. But I think I needed to though. For one, it helped me quit smoking! (yuk) I was never a big smoker, really, but I smoked, nonetheless. And it also helped me focus in on some goals I wanted and some things I wanted to do for myself. However, lately, in the last month, I have been feeling a little up-tight about things. As I don't want to go out and get drunk, I still want to go out though. I miss going to see live shows. I miss dancing on Friday nights at iPop! at Art Bar. I miss going to see live jazz. Even if I don't drink, I can still go out and have fun! That's how I am and always have been. Why stop now? I don't like sitting on a couch on Friday nights, etc. Occasionally, I may have a drink (like at Halloween or this past weekend because it was New Years weekend), but if I don't, I don't care anymore what people think. I like to feel good the next day when I wake up. I don't like sleeping all day b/c of a hangover! Granted, I had a great time this past weekend, but I was tired, I got sick, and it took a lot of energy out of me. I'm tired of people asking me, "why aren't you drinking?" or "You need a drink." Honestly, that's why I stay home. I just don't want to have to deal with it. But I shouldn't have to worry about it. I'm 32, and the peer pressure days are over for me. I shouldn't have to feel as if I'm boring, old or lame if I'm not drunk or drinking. And I'm still living in the moment and having fun, even though I'm not. It's my choice. That's what life gives us is choices, and that is mine. If I accept you, why can't you accept me for who I am? I have made convictions this past year, and I'm standing true to them. I've been changing in different ways. I like it, and I don't want to get sidetracked again.
However, I never want to be a person who places double standards or who is judgmental either. I feel that maybe I have kinda been that way later on in 2007. It wasn't on purpose, but I kind of feel that maybe I was being too harsh or judgmental on some folks this year. I never want to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm sorry guys.
And I love my spontaneity! This past Saturday, I went out to my friend's store to look at some gear. I ended up hanging out with those guys in the store until they closed, and then we went over to Goatfeathers and had some wine and appetizers. I met some new people. I had no clue that I was even going to go out or anything, and it was great! I had so much fun with those guys. The most sarcastic group of people...it was a blast! I love how I meet random people. It's great! Here's to making new friends in 2008!!!
I want to do more of the things that are on my "to do" list. :)
I just want to make good decisions. I want to make decisions and know exactly how I feel before I act on them. I don't want to get hurt, and I don't want to hurt other people. I don't like feeling confused. I want to enjoy a moment and live in that moment without worrying about it, however, I just want to be sure about things before acting on them. I want to be wise with my words and my actions. Those are what people will remember. They always remember how you made them feel. Just like I will always remember how you made me feel.
Also, I'm getting back into climbing. I haven't climbed indoor or outdoors since 11/11 to be exact. (I kinda got down this holiday season. :(
Not sad, but a little down and confused about some stuff.) I'm a beginner at most things. All of the things I want to do, I am a beginner at. I meet a lot of people that are not beginners. Luckily, they take me under their wing and show me the way, but it is frustrating to always be the beginner!
I just want to be great in 2008! :)
One of them that sticks out in my mind, at least right now, is that I want to live more in the moment but be wiser about my decisions though.
I worry too much about things. I really would like to just be able to enjoy the moment and relax and not be a worrier.
Everything in moderation!!!
I can still be healthy and still go out. I have given up the night life this past year 2007 a lot. But I think I needed to though. For one, it helped me quit smoking! (yuk) I was never a big smoker, really, but I smoked, nonetheless. And it also helped me focus in on some goals I wanted and some things I wanted to do for myself. However, lately, in the last month, I have been feeling a little up-tight about things. As I don't want to go out and get drunk, I still want to go out though. I miss going to see live shows. I miss dancing on Friday nights at iPop! at Art Bar. I miss going to see live jazz. Even if I don't drink, I can still go out and have fun! That's how I am and always have been. Why stop now? I don't like sitting on a couch on Friday nights, etc. Occasionally, I may have a drink (like at Halloween or this past weekend because it was New Years weekend), but if I don't, I don't care anymore what people think. I like to feel good the next day when I wake up. I don't like sleeping all day b/c of a hangover! Granted, I had a great time this past weekend, but I was tired, I got sick, and it took a lot of energy out of me. I'm tired of people asking me, "why aren't you drinking?" or "You need a drink." Honestly, that's why I stay home. I just don't want to have to deal with it. But I shouldn't have to worry about it. I'm 32, and the peer pressure days are over for me. I shouldn't have to feel as if I'm boring, old or lame if I'm not drunk or drinking. And I'm still living in the moment and having fun, even though I'm not. It's my choice. That's what life gives us is choices, and that is mine. If I accept you, why can't you accept me for who I am? I have made convictions this past year, and I'm standing true to them. I've been changing in different ways. I like it, and I don't want to get sidetracked again.
However, I never want to be a person who places double standards or who is judgmental either. I feel that maybe I have kinda been that way later on in 2007. It wasn't on purpose, but I kind of feel that maybe I was being too harsh or judgmental on some folks this year. I never want to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm sorry guys.
And I love my spontaneity! This past Saturday, I went out to my friend's store to look at some gear. I ended up hanging out with those guys in the store until they closed, and then we went over to Goatfeathers and had some wine and appetizers. I met some new people. I had no clue that I was even going to go out or anything, and it was great! I had so much fun with those guys. The most sarcastic group of people...it was a blast! I love how I meet random people. It's great! Here's to making new friends in 2008!!!
I want to do more of the things that are on my "to do" list. :)
I just want to make good decisions. I want to make decisions and know exactly how I feel before I act on them. I don't want to get hurt, and I don't want to hurt other people. I don't like feeling confused. I want to enjoy a moment and live in that moment without worrying about it, however, I just want to be sure about things before acting on them. I want to be wise with my words and my actions. Those are what people will remember. They always remember how you made them feel. Just like I will always remember how you made me feel.
Also, I'm getting back into climbing. I haven't climbed indoor or outdoors since 11/11 to be exact. (I kinda got down this holiday season. :(
Not sad, but a little down and confused about some stuff.) I'm a beginner at most things. All of the things I want to do, I am a beginner at. I meet a lot of people that are not beginners. Luckily, they take me under their wing and show me the way, but it is frustrating to always be the beginner!
I just want to be great in 2008! :)
December 29, 2007
"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face...you must do that which you think you cannot do."
- Eleanor Roosevelt
- Eleanor Roosevelt
December 18, 2007
Instead of saying "I should do this" or "I have to go do this"...
What about, "I am going to do this" or "I want to do this"?
Just a thought!!!
:)
December 4, 2007
When thinking of goals, etc., remember...there is a fine line between adventurous and procrastination.
"You can walk the path of greatness. It will take work. Life does that sometimes, brings you to your worst only for you to find that your worst led you to your best. You can walk the path of regrets. It is a very easy road to get to. Life does that sometimes, brings you to your best only for you to find that your best led you to your worst."
Success is great! But don't forget to have a life folks. Don't forget where you come from. Never forget to stop and smell the roses!
"You can walk the path of greatness. It will take work. Life does that sometimes, brings you to your worst only for you to find that your worst led you to your best. You can walk the path of regrets. It is a very easy road to get to. Life does that sometimes, brings you to your best only for you to find that your best led you to your worst."
Success is great! But don't forget to have a life folks. Don't forget where you come from. Never forget to stop and smell the roses!
December 2, 2007
So, today, I finally learned how to change my own oil in my car!!!
Thanks to my friend who taught me to do it. :)
Surprisingly, there is actually nothing to it. It's very simple. It's just knowing how to do it. I was very surprised. I thought it would be so much more difficult and messier than it was.
I also learned how to replace the motor in my guest bath's shit fan (exhaust fan).
Now, I need to replace the washer on the cold water knob in my master bathroom sink. But my friend verbally explained it and showed me what it would be like. So, I'm ready to take on that challenge. hee
Thanks again dude for teaching/showing me how to change my oil. :)
And for helping me with the fan in the bathroom, etc. and re-hanging my light fixture in my computer room.
Much appreciated!!!
Thanks to my friend who taught me to do it. :)
Surprisingly, there is actually nothing to it. It's very simple. It's just knowing how to do it. I was very surprised. I thought it would be so much more difficult and messier than it was.
I also learned how to replace the motor in my guest bath's shit fan (exhaust fan).
Now, I need to replace the washer on the cold water knob in my master bathroom sink. But my friend verbally explained it and showed me what it would be like. So, I'm ready to take on that challenge. hee
Thanks again dude for teaching/showing me how to change my oil. :)
And for helping me with the fan in the bathroom, etc. and re-hanging my light fixture in my computer room.
Much appreciated!!!
December 1, 2007 - I'll never be a hater!
GIRLS!!! Come on! Seriously!
Why the hate for each other?
One thing I've never understood is why women can't be proud of another woman.
Why the jealousy?
We are all different in so many ways. We are all strong. We are all beautiful. Own it girls!
And be proud of other chics out there who are different and who make a difference and who are bad--ass bithces who kick ass in sports or fashion, or production or design, or climbing or sports or writing or photography or modeling or surfing or what the hell ever!!!
We need to support each other instead of hatin' all the time.
It's too easy to see someone that you're not and get jealous or hate on them. I will never be that type of chic. Anytime I see a chic who freakin' rules, I'm going to tell them they rule!
I feel that women need to be more supportive of one another. We worry too much about comparing ourselves to each other instead of being proud of one another and learning things from each other. We all have something to offer. Own it. Be proud of yourself and the woman next to you. :)
Why the hate for each other?
One thing I've never understood is why women can't be proud of another woman.
Why the jealousy?
We are all different in so many ways. We are all strong. We are all beautiful. Own it girls!
And be proud of other chics out there who are different and who make a difference and who are bad--ass bithces who kick ass in sports or fashion, or production or design, or climbing or sports or writing or photography or modeling or surfing or what the hell ever!!!
We need to support each other instead of hatin' all the time.
It's too easy to see someone that you're not and get jealous or hate on them. I will never be that type of chic. Anytime I see a chic who freakin' rules, I'm going to tell them they rule!
I feel that women need to be more supportive of one another. We worry too much about comparing ourselves to each other instead of being proud of one another and learning things from each other. We all have something to offer. Own it. Be proud of yourself and the woman next to you. :)
November 26, 2007 - What Makes an Artist?
I am an emotional person. I am very passionate about art and about lyrics, etc. I'm not a very good creative writer myself, but I am drawn to beautiful poetry and writings that make me feel emotion...as in music or even that painting...I love tearing it all apart and analyzing it.
I hear a spectacularly written song. It means one thing to me but another to the person who actually wrote it. Who is responsible for that emotion? Well, I am, I suppose. I am the one creating that meaning for myself. It's my emotion that I've created for myself, right? So, does that mean then that I am actually the artist?
However, had the song never been written, then I would've never been able to feel the emotion from that song...even though I am the one creating the emotion. The painting or the song is an outlet for my emotion. Isn't that art though?
The same goes with a poem or a painting.
Sure the original artist has a certain meaning, however, we all interpret things in our own ways.
For example, Switchfoot has pretty amazing lyrics. Have you ever been to one of their concerts? The lyrics moved me so much that I literally cried. Yes, they are a Christian rock band. You don't have to be a Christian for their songs to have meaning to you. For me, they're positive reinforcing lyrics, and to be quite frank, I probably wouldn't be here if it weren't for some of their songs helped to pull me out of depression. "I dare you to move like today never happened" or "This is your life, are you who you want to be?...are you where you want to be?", etc.
You guys know what I am talking about...the concert that makes you feel as if you've just had a religious experience? You get this feeling inside you...it's unexplainable...that's fucking art!!!
Even though I may create my own emotion and meaning as to what that song means to me personally, the musician is still an artist though.
I mean, after all, if an artist can't tap into your emotions and bring all of that out, then all they are producing/selling are catchy tunes, right? If that's the case, they aren't artists at all.
It is truly an art to tap into human emotion.
I hear a spectacularly written song. It means one thing to me but another to the person who actually wrote it. Who is responsible for that emotion? Well, I am, I suppose. I am the one creating that meaning for myself. It's my emotion that I've created for myself, right? So, does that mean then that I am actually the artist?
However, had the song never been written, then I would've never been able to feel the emotion from that song...even though I am the one creating the emotion. The painting or the song is an outlet for my emotion. Isn't that art though?
The same goes with a poem or a painting.
Sure the original artist has a certain meaning, however, we all interpret things in our own ways.
For example, Switchfoot has pretty amazing lyrics. Have you ever been to one of their concerts? The lyrics moved me so much that I literally cried. Yes, they are a Christian rock band. You don't have to be a Christian for their songs to have meaning to you. For me, they're positive reinforcing lyrics, and to be quite frank, I probably wouldn't be here if it weren't for some of their songs helped to pull me out of depression. "I dare you to move like today never happened" or "This is your life, are you who you want to be?...are you where you want to be?", etc.
You guys know what I am talking about...the concert that makes you feel as if you've just had a religious experience? You get this feeling inside you...it's unexplainable...that's fucking art!!!
Even though I may create my own emotion and meaning as to what that song means to me personally, the musician is still an artist though.
I mean, after all, if an artist can't tap into your emotions and bring all of that out, then all they are producing/selling are catchy tunes, right? If that's the case, they aren't artists at all.
It is truly an art to tap into human emotion.
November 8, 2007 - COMMIT!!!
"I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me...to make me less afraid and more accessible...to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance...to live so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which comes to me as blossom, goes on as fruit."
November 3, 2007 - I Love Fig Newtons!
Anyways, so last weekend was Halloween. It was a blast!
My new roommate moved in before Halloween. Now, he's leaving. I have already managed to drive him away! lol Just kidding! He's going into the military. I'll be looking for another roommate soon. First, I think I want to get some things done around the house though. We'll see...
I tried my first spin class last weekend! It was freakin' hard as hell! I'm still not quite sure what I think about it. It literally kicked my ass. I hate cardio! I really need to work on my breathing. When I get tired and out of breath on an approach, at least I have the wall to think about. "I'll be climbing soon." It gets me stoked again. In a spin class, I really have nothing to be excited about. I'm on a stationary bike...suffering! I'd much rather be working out in the outdoors instead of on a stationary bike! No scenery, and you aren't going anywhere at all. I'm just not really sure yet how I feel about it. I suppose I'll try it again. It is a very good work-out, nonetheless. One thing I would have to get used to is the damn seat! It hurts! It hurt to sit down for a couple of days after! lol
So, I went to my yoga class Thursday night. I have missed about 7 classes in a row. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be after missing 7 classes, but I did see how much I had missed it.
I have been climbing in the gym again. I finally made it to the top of this one new wall I've been working on. Now, I have decided that I'm going to build strength and endurance. I decided to start climbing this one newbie wall over and over again until I am falling off and can't climb anymore. Until my arms are burning! It's a 5.7 wall. I climb this wall faster now and over and over again in a row. As soon as I get down, I go right back up. It's good exercise. I need the endurance and the strength training. I fly up that wall now. It's funny, back in July, that wall was hard. It makes me feel good to see improvement. :)
I definitely feel stronger now.
I had started losing weight after I got back from my trip to Cali. I wasn't feeling well either. So, I started drinking protein shakes and nutrition shakes to gain or maintain weight. I think it's helping. I drink those drinks in addition to my regular diet, etc. I have been eating healthier too. My doc says I am fine, but she doesn't want to see me lose any more weight though. She says with a high metabolism, and a work-out routine like climbing, etc. that I would lose some weight. She said it was probably normal and for me not to worry. My body craves protein and carbs now. Energy and fuel! Those shakes really help!
I mowed my front yard this morning for the last time this year, hopefully. Now, I just need to do the back yard and clean my gutters out.
I can't wait to get out for another outdoor climb soon before the weather gets cold. :)
My new roommate moved in before Halloween. Now, he's leaving. I have already managed to drive him away! lol Just kidding! He's going into the military. I'll be looking for another roommate soon. First, I think I want to get some things done around the house though. We'll see...
I tried my first spin class last weekend! It was freakin' hard as hell! I'm still not quite sure what I think about it. It literally kicked my ass. I hate cardio! I really need to work on my breathing. When I get tired and out of breath on an approach, at least I have the wall to think about. "I'll be climbing soon." It gets me stoked again. In a spin class, I really have nothing to be excited about. I'm on a stationary bike...suffering! I'd much rather be working out in the outdoors instead of on a stationary bike! No scenery, and you aren't going anywhere at all. I'm just not really sure yet how I feel about it. I suppose I'll try it again. It is a very good work-out, nonetheless. One thing I would have to get used to is the damn seat! It hurts! It hurt to sit down for a couple of days after! lol
So, I went to my yoga class Thursday night. I have missed about 7 classes in a row. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be after missing 7 classes, but I did see how much I had missed it.
I have been climbing in the gym again. I finally made it to the top of this one new wall I've been working on. Now, I have decided that I'm going to build strength and endurance. I decided to start climbing this one newbie wall over and over again until I am falling off and can't climb anymore. Until my arms are burning! It's a 5.7 wall. I climb this wall faster now and over and over again in a row. As soon as I get down, I go right back up. It's good exercise. I need the endurance and the strength training. I fly up that wall now. It's funny, back in July, that wall was hard. It makes me feel good to see improvement. :)
I definitely feel stronger now.
I had started losing weight after I got back from my trip to Cali. I wasn't feeling well either. So, I started drinking protein shakes and nutrition shakes to gain or maintain weight. I think it's helping. I drink those drinks in addition to my regular diet, etc. I have been eating healthier too. My doc says I am fine, but she doesn't want to see me lose any more weight though. She says with a high metabolism, and a work-out routine like climbing, etc. that I would lose some weight. She said it was probably normal and for me not to worry. My body craves protein and carbs now. Energy and fuel! Those shakes really help!
I mowed my front yard this morning for the last time this year, hopefully. Now, I just need to do the back yard and clean my gutters out.
I can't wait to get out for another outdoor climb soon before the weather gets cold. :)
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